Trying to keep the track of everything

Here I am again, trying to write about things I do.
It might be good if I would actually HAVE something put in order in this world, but like my life itself is, everything lately seem to follow the same pattern: messy!
That's why, I decided to write again a little, to have my memories put in place.

Some things are good, some things are bad, other things are worst. To me, these days, the worst is not the news about the evolution of the disease. Instead, I see the fact that I'm almost completely ignored by people (and that reflects on my works too!) as being the worst thing on this planet. That ignorance of the 'fandom' is triggering among the bad feeling of being already forgotten, the desire to not make anymore any Fan Made Vocaloid Concerts! Yes! you've read that correctly. Why should I pursue the presence of the virtual IDOLS on the stage in the affordable way, if on one hand I'm not allowed to at least live decently from doing it, because the team is putting me to do almost everything while receiving almost nothing, not even the normal musical sharing, and in other hand, there are no people willing to actually contribute with their works (talking about the part of creating motion data) at a decent level of stage performance.

For this edition, just to make it shorter, I will make one more event, the one in Sweden. I'm sure I'll be left all alone again in creating it, and putting everything together. But after that, I will reserve my time to create songs.